Actor Hwang Jung-eum. YouTube Hwang Jung-eum capture
Actor Hwang Jung-eum stood in front of the camera for the first time in a year and spoke candidly about the controversies and her feelings. From the fact that she paid the penalty for an advertisement done with the ‘High Kick’ team due to an embezzlement controversy, to the hard-hitting statement, “Because my married life was so unhappy, nothing else felt unhappy,” she continued to share her feelings without reservation.
On the 19th, a video titled ‘It has been a while to say hello | The stories from the past year’ was posted on the YouTube channel of Hwang Jung-eum.
In the video, when asked by the production team about the past year, she recalled, “Was there not a very big incident that many people know about? I spent my time frantically trying to deal with it. A year feels like a month.”
YouTube ‘Hwang Jung-eum’ capture
She added that during her period of self-reflection, she felt deep fear about her livelihood and career. “It was truly hard, and the only thing I know how to do is act, so I even thought I might not be able to act again going forward, that I might not be able to return,” she said, and confessed, “What do I do now, how am I going to live, if I earn money then what am I going to do with my life, there was this vague fear and dread.”
But the greatest driving force that kept her going was her two children. Hwang Jung-eum said, “But then, when I look at our babies, Wang-sik and Kang-sik, they are so adorable. So I think I was able to endure because of them. We have to live on, after all,” expressing maternal love.
What drew the most attention was a remark in which she directly compared the series of controversies around her with the ‘unhappiness of married life’. Hwang Jung-eum confessed, “Because my married life was so unhappy, I did not think things like the embezzlement issue were unhappy,” and added, “I was sorry for those matters and they were things I had to resolve, but I did not think I was unhappy.” She went on, “Is that unhappiness not something with no end in sight? Other than being unable to divorce, there was nothing unhappy in my life,” confessing the pain of her marriage.
She also confessed that her values in life changed greatly after going through the series of events. She humbled herself, saying, “Since I was young, I always had those almost god-like thoughts, ‘I am special, why? I was born so pretty. I am Hwang Jung-eum. I was in Little Angels, and my birthday is also December 25, Christmas. The earth revolves around me,’ but (because of this) I realized I was dull inside, that I am a bug (I thought).” She added a modest wish: “I hope to be a bit ordinary and at peace. I hope it is quiet and not noisy.”
As for why she started YouTube despite the possibility that the public may still feel uncomfortable, she showed a determination to face it head-on. “I think it is natural for people to feel uncomfortable, and I accept it all,” she said, adding, “I need to seek forgiveness for my mistakes. I should work hard at something until many people feel at ease.”
Regarding the future direction of the channel, Hwang Jung-eum smiled and said, “I failed at marriage, and this time I failed at making money, I failed at everything. I truly lived so hard,” and continued, “So I want to share those things. Do not go through what I went through, take an easier path, do not take a hard path like me. That is what I want to let you know,” expressing her resolve to offer comfort and advice to those facing similar difficulties.
